( I hacked SEELE to get this information, u gaiz. )

Also! I've been meaning to do this for quite some time, but never got around to it (this is Carrie-speak for 'i'm a lazy bum.') soo.... here it is now! Ta-da! Please feel free to use this post to tell me what you think about my characterization of Kaworu. Comments, concerns, constructive criticism, opinions, proclamations of homosexuality.... I welcome it all with open arms~

[Tabuko Kaworu is sitting outside the residential area, presumably nearby their teepee. There's a stack of female clothing beside him. She still isn't wearing pants, but she IS donning some...highly questionable new head wear. She smiles pleasantly at the camera.]

Hello everyone. Shinji has told me all about what has happened since I left. To those of you who expressed concern over my well being and offered to help him, thank you. I appreciate the kindness you've shown us.

It's still a bit difficult to move around, but I will heal soon. In the meantime, Shinji brought me some things to wear. I've been enjoying learning about the lilim female. I believe these are hats, correct?

[The video turns on, perched a fair distance above the beach. After the flood last week, the place looks like a real mess. Driftwood and lost belongings have been traveling to and fro with the tide - leaving the shoreline itself with a rather eclectic mix of junk that one could liken to a beachside garage sale.

Amongst the other items up for grabs, there is something rather human-shaped. It's surrounded by debris, but as the water moves across it, frayed black wings and long, silver-grey hair become visible. Sharp-eyed viewers may notice that, if it is indeed a human, they seem only partially clothed.

The video continues for a few minutes, but the figure doesn't seem to be moving. Eventually, the feed turns itself off.]

Shinji!

There were some conflicts with my schedule, so I had Ms. Akagi help me hack into the school's system spoke with the principal and had it rearranged. It would appear we're taking all the same classes now.

Isn't that wonderful? ♥


[ooc: the only thing that has changed is that he exchanged some of his creepiness in favor of faggotry. In other words, he shifted a little closer to Raising Project canon, rather than a merger between Raising Project and Manga. Otherwise, he's still an incredibly weird and obsessive stalker. Also he plays violin. :| LOL Melly reminded me he doesn't anymore. LOLOLOL Death price. Hey, at least he's not killing animals this time. Yet? ]

...Did something happen to us last week? I feel like there was a change, but I can't remember. I just feel stiff and sore. My neck....

Oh, how beautiful
the life that stirs within us
Oh, and yet, how cruel.

Inevitably
it comes and goes in cycles
like the ocean tide.

Such fated waters
wrap the time into its foam;
carry it away.

I do not give chase
nor comb through its shores to find
the year it captured.

I relinquish it
to this world's greedy waves
with my gratitude.

Grateful, for I know
No matter how strong the ebb,
I'll drift back to you.


[ooc: ffff I know the valentines curse was supposed to be a one-day thing or whatevs' but shhh don't spoil the fun for me DX;; I was busy and this just worked out too nicely to backdate it, considering the 17th marked a certain gay angel's first full year here. Lol Tabris, you WOULD show up on the 17th, wouldn't you? Pbbft. ]

[The recording clicks on to the sound of labored breathing. Kaworu's voice is weak and tired, but not pained. In fact, he seems almost...content.]

So in the end...

I decided to follow my "heart" as well.


[ooc: SHINJI'S BEST BELATED VALENTINE'S DAY GIFT EVER Y/Y? 8| MOAR LIKE HIS ONLY VALENTINE'S DAY GIFT EVER, AMIRITE? This is totally a reference to his conversation with Jet, btw. :|b]

[Isn't it an awkward time to be posting? You bet it is. Kaworu's voice is a whisper. He seems not to want to wake anyone.]

I'd like to be able to tell you this to your face.. but just in case things don't go as planned...

I'm glad I got to meet you, Shinji.


And I'm sorry.

[There's the sound of a gun being loaded, then the feed cuts off.]


[OOC: THIS CAN ONLY END WELL Y/Y?]

Hahaha. It's been rather interesting. When it was announced we were leaving, there was a very noticeable shift in the personalities and mannerisms of several of the other soldiers. Some became very excited, others began to panic or complain. Some who had never talked found their voices, where others fell silent. Is it because they realize they are leaving safety? That if they don't say it now, they won't be able to later?

Hm.

I myself do not feel much different, perhaps because I was not drafted against my wishes. I'm here of my own choosing. This is my duty. Still, I do not understand it entirely. Mankind has made these weapons, capable of and intended for destruction, but we are given the task of using them to protect..? Can one not protect without destroying?

It is very strange, indeed.

[ ooc: Even at war, Kaworu waxes philosophical. He's fighting with the good guys and he met Shinji when they got put in the same troop :D I'm sure he won't turn out to be a traitor or something crazy like that! This doesn't feel familiar at all!]

[Kaworu turns on the feed. He is sitting in the teepee, though Shinji doesn't seem to be there. At least, he's not in the immediate view of the camera AND THEREFORE NOT THERE. FLAWLESS LOGIC!]

Hello everyone! Are you well? I'm glad to see that the weather has finally returned to normal. The concept of Winter is something I'm not familiar with, so it was very interesting..but because it was putting others in danger, I'm very grateful that is it over now. That's not to say I didn't enjoy spending time with Shinji, of course. That was very nice. [He grins.]

I still don't entirely understand the Lilim holiday of "Christmas" nor do I know who or what a Santa is.. but regardless, I enjoyed participating in the "Secret Santa." Eiji, did your gift reach you? I hope you enjoy it.

Ah, Speaking of...

[Kaworu holds up a vinyl record to the camera.]

Does anyone know what is this and what do I do with it?


[ ooc: Because one of the ideas was 'cooking', Kaworu got Eiji a fancy soup ladle. Just a soup ladle.. no pot or anything. He hasn't quite figured out this whole...cooking thing, yet. :|a ]

[The video feed times on. It appears to be...underwater? An Azelf is bobbing up up and down along the seabed. It looks rather restless.]


I can't help but wonder if they did this in lieu of the fact I was refused access to the water during the last curse. Or perhaps to once again seperate me from Shinji.

...I don't appreciate it.

I want to go find him, but it's been difficult. I feel compelled to stay down here. I have to overcome this...


[ooc: a psychic type known as a 'willpower pokemon'..whose ability is levitate and who hangs out around the water? :|a Works for me! Bonus points for being part of a series of creatures that a shady organization is using to try and create a new world.]

It's strange to have avoided a curse for once.

What's stranger, though, is that I think I'm actually a little upset by this fact.

Hnn..He's not in the tent. I hope he's alright..

Ah. It's back on. That's good. I am happy that I have returned to normal.

These curses can be rather...hindering. I suppose I should have expected no less from our captors. Though they are not like the others or like myself - they are very human in their nature.

Mind you, I say human and not humane - the two are, in my experience, nowhere near synonymous. Not necessarily mutually exclusive, just ... not standard with the title of humanity, as would ideally be expected. I think that is interesting. The more power a Lilim is bestowed, the more likely they become to twist it. They become more and more inclined to forget their place and use these powers to an end that brings them joy, regardless of price. Many suffer for the benefit of a few.

I wonder...is this the nature of all Gods?

..what a life the Lilim lead..

[Kaworu is seen at the end of a hallway, slowly lurching forward with an awkward stride. His clothes are torn and covered in blood and his hair is dull and matted. A white ribbon is unskillfully tied around his neck. As he draws closer, it become apparent that his already incredibly pale skin had taken on a sickly tone and started to decay in places, leaving twitching muscle and jagged bone exposed. He seems entirely unphased by this - in fact, he almost appears to be smiling.

When he speaks, it is a soft, drawn out moan.]

Shin..ji....

( Private to self | Semi-hackable )

( Private to the Katsura's son | Unhackable )

When the creators unite, we must open our hearts and minds before them and be judged. Only those deemed worthy will ascend. It is important to remember such things.

[Filtered from the children | Semi-hackable]

"Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it."
- Proverbs 22:6


Often, I think about how very fortunate I am to have such a wonderful family and to live in such an excellent community. Everyone always seems so pleasant and determined, even during the hard times - it's very inspirational.

Though I know Jushirou and I would not have been blessed with a child had He not trusted our ability, I can't help but often feel unsuited to the job. There is much I do not know..things not yet revealed to me. Despite my greatest efforts to encourage my son to become more outgoing, he remains very distant. He never seems to talk to us any more than is absolutely necessary, and refuses to open up to either his father or myself. I fear that with his mind so closed, he will never be able to achieve instrumentality. It's a very upsetting thought.

Is this a phase all children go through? How am I to handle it?


[ ooc: Meet the mayor's ..uh.."wife"; a strange and spiritual sort of person...who may or may not be some sort of crazy religious cultist. :|a I CAN JUST HEAR THE TABLOIDS NOW.. ]

[A big yawn.]

.....

[Kaworu (or rather, Shinji) comes into the cameras view as he sits up slowly. After a bit of a pause, he begins going about a normal waking-up routine. He gets so far as starting to change clothes before it hits him. Wait a second I sleep naked what manner of tomfoolery is this. Shinji*Kaworu starts to examine his half-naked self curiously, as though this is the most natural reaction to the situation. He gives a small but pleased grin.]

...Well this is different.

Things remembered, things forgotten. Like the others, I can neither recall nor access the entries from the past work. There are things left on my desktop from that time, though. They're encrypted, but I should be able to get to them with a bit of work. It's not my highest priority at the moment, though. It seems another battle is about to begin. This need to fight is a desire I'll never fully understand, I suppose. Lilim will be Lilim.

Ah..

This day. The day I was "born", for all intents and purposes. It's funny. I was never intended to reach my sixteenth year, and yet here I am. There's a novelty to it - a strange, quaint feeling. I wonder what the old men would say. Nothing positive, most likely. Hahaha. I suppose I'd have little more to say to them, myself.

I'm grateful for this moment. Thank you.

Shinji, I found you a copy of the version of the game with the First..!

Additionally, I seem to have finished mine. So many things happened that I do not believe happened in reality...but you seemed happy, Shinji. It made me happy as well. As is perhaps to be expected of such a strangely knowledgeable game, I appeared too, near the end. But..




The end results were a bit different. Hmm...


[ ooc: Sexuality is a stat in raising project. No, seriously. It's raised by interacting with the girls and hanging with your friends and lowered by eva-related stuff. The lower it is, the more likely Shinji is to catch the gay in the ending :| SO RIDICULOUS I LOVE IT. I have no idea how you avoid killing him when he gets identified as Tabris, but there must be some way. 8| ]

I typed in Shinji's name and found a "torrent" for this. I'm not sure what a torrent is, but this seems to be a game..? How interesting...

[ ooc: hells yeah Shinji Ikari Raising Project. :< I had to jack the screens from the official site since it doesn't load on my mac, boohoo. ]